The dictionary definition of happy is: feeling or showing pleasure or contentment. Words don’t really give the feeling of being happy much justice. There’s nothing like it really. It’s the best natural high you can get! A feeling of euphoria, a spark, a sunny feeling inside that can’t be matched. But, as with many things in life, you don’t really appreciate happiness until you don’t have it.
Happiness had been evading me for quite some time. I didn’t realize it at the time, but now as I sit back and look at some of my past years I can see it wasn’t there. I wouldn’t say I was depressed or anything, but the happiness was drained from my soul. That spark of life had gone out. The true person who I am just wasn’t shining thru anymore. Tom was dead.
But something happened as of late. A small spark started up inside me. It continues to grow and as each day goes on happiness is blooming inside of me. A sun is starting to shine, and I can feel a rebirth of Tom. I really can’t explain the feeling, other than it’s something I want to feel all the time.
So now that I’ve found this happiness bursting inside of me, how can I keep it there? Eat a troll? No, that wouldn’t solve the problem. I need to find the source of this happiness and continue to fan the flame. And that is where I find my journey right now. Finding these sources of happiness and diving right into them like they are a ocean of happy! I can’t wait to see where this journey takes me!
Of course with any emotion comes counter emotions. With highs there will also be lows. But I am convinced that with this new found happiness and rebirth of myself I can conquer any lows that come my way and find a healthy balance in life. And that doesn’t sound too bad at all.
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